Sad and Lonely

Warning, I am about to whine! I realized this weekend that I am 34 years old and really have no friends. I hosted a Tupperware party, at my mom's request since she had one and needed the bookings. I invited 24 people, mostly ladies from school who I thought I was friendly with, and only my mom, MIL and neighbor showed up. The real insult was that only 4 other people even bothered to call and tell me they weren't coming, the rest just didn't show. The Tupperware lady said to try and get "outside" sales, but I have no one to ask. Now, I could give a flying poop about the Tupperware, but how sad that I have no one to play with. I didn't even rate any RSVPs. Add this episode to the fact that my close friend of over 12 years just stopped talking to me a year ago with no explanation and you can see why I feel like crap. I have one set of really good friends who live hours away and I never see. Then I have a friend who lives near by and although she is really sweet, we have little in common and I often feel "distant" from her. Why is it so hard for adults to make friends? I don't work outside the home so I have very little contact with the outside world making it even harder to meet people. Plus, I will admit I am not very tolerant and very picky about who I hang with.
As for the rude ladies at school, they can suck it. I am done pretending to like them in the vain hope of making some sort of connection. Overall, I am just feeling bad for myself today.

A New Year

It is the beginning of a New Year and I have decided not to make any major resolutions. Instead, this year I am going to make a pledge each morning to be the best person I can be, for that day. I am also going to take a little better care of myself. I also swear that I will be coming to WV for a long weekend of tomato soup, game playing and drinking and I will drag Dave along with me.